Up and Down

Kadang-kadang gue ngerasa hidup tidak lagi menyenangkan.. I mean There's no more excitement until I find out something that can trigger my adrenaline.. I need challenge to be excited. Sometimes it's fun to be bad girl.. Sometimes it's fun to be good girl. Both can make you excited. Being bad girl is slightly more interesting sometimes. Why? Because You get to know people better. Why miss all the fun, if you can actually have it? This is why being good girl sometimes isn't more fun than bad girl. Here's what I thought about being a villain.. : Being a Hero, everybody praises you. you love it. you are top of the world. Being a villain, everybody hates you. you are the bottom of food chain. still people adore you for that.. why? because people have desire to do bad things.. unfortunately there's this called RULES. People create rules because they are afraid they might do something bad. they are afraid somebody will hate them because then they dont have enough guts to face it. Ow come on, why miss all the fun if you actually can have it? In psychology, I know specific term of creating a MASK. This is what we called PERSONA. Good thing to have it. Bad thing not to have it. What people do when they create a PERSONA? It depends.. Here is the great part : Deep down you are a jerk, outside you can be O-You-Are-So-Adorable person. how about the opposite? Deep down you are sensitive and kind, outside you can be -Shit-I-Dont-Wanna-Give-A-Damn person. Isn't it Exciting? I prefer playing Villain, cause being a hero makes me bored. Excuse me for saying this.